- Foreword by Roger E. Olson | ix
- Preface | xi
- Acknowledgements | xiii
PART ONE: Pursuing Salvation
- Early Years | 3
- Being Catholic | 9
- Humor Without Happiness | 18
- Discovering God | 26
PART TWO: Pursuing Spirituality
- Life on the Prairies | 43
- Marriage, Learning, and Serving | 56
- New Directions | 66
- Which Way to Go | 74
- A Pastor Once Again | 82
- Pastoral and Personal Concerns | 89
- Doctoral Studies and So Much More | 99
- Dallas Days and Dallas Nights | 111
- Liking Minnesota | 120
- Adventures in Theology | 128
PART THREE: Pursuing the Strength to Suffer Well
- Quiet Desperation | 143
- On and Off the List | 151
- Waiting for a Heart | 160
- Transplant and Rehab | 165
- Struggle and Redirection | 174
- Relapse | 182
- Worst Days | 189
- Emerging from Depression | 198
- The Mystery of the Quest | 207
- To Maintain a Constant Victory | 217
- No Easy Answers | 226
- Gratitude and Grace | 233
- Epilogue | 243
- Recommended Books on Suffering and Loss | 245
- Other Publications by the Author | 249
