• Foreword by Roger E. Olson | ix
  • Preface | xi
  • Acknowledgements | xiii

PART ONE: Pursuing Salvation

  1. Early Years | 3
  2. Being Catholic | 9
  3. Humor Without Happiness | 18
  4. Discovering God | 26

PART TWO: Pursuing Spirituality

  1. Life on the Prairies | 43
  2. Marriage, Learning, and Serving | 56
  3. New Directions | 66
  4. Which Way to Go | 74
  5. A Pastor Once Again | 82
  6. Pastoral and Personal Concerns | 89
  7. Doctoral Studies and So Much More | 99
  8. Dallas Days and Dallas Nights | 111
  9. Liking Minnesota | 120
  10. Adventures in Theology | 128

PART THREE: Pursuing the Strength to Suffer Well

  1. Quiet Desperation | 143
  2. On and Off the List | 151
  3. Waiting for a Heart | 160
  4. Transplant and Rehab | 165
  5. Struggle and Redirection | 174
  6. Relapse | 182
  7. Worst Days | 189
  8. Emerging from Depression | 198
  9. The Mystery of the Quest | 207
  10. To Maintain a Constant Victory | 217
  11. No Easy Answers | 226
  12. Gratitude and Grace | 233
  • Epilogue | 243
  • Recommended Books on Suffering and Loss | 245
  • Other Publications by the Author | 249